October 28th, 2017
I killed this shoot. After a long break of laziness and learning in my room on the computer, I decided to take a four-hour car ride to the mountains in eastern Italy, and, fuck me, I was on point today... but not all day. I started it out in the parking lot and almost had a panic attack because I was trying to shoot this tower and couldn't figure out how to frame it for the life of me.
So I took a hike. A literal hike.
This was the first time I really schedule a shoot where I had time to look around, plan, frame, and just THINK. I'm always in GO mode, but that GO mode is panic and anguish, not a business-like, calm, fuck everything let's go mode.
But, this time, I took my time because I had time. Really, I've always had time, but I've never felt at peace and aware of it, especially when there are other people with me to consider. Here, there were tourists, but I didn't pay them much mind. I was in a healthy headspace, and it shows.
Eventually, when I've learned more about processing, I'll revisit this. I know it's not perfect, but this is a HUGE milestone for me in both my personal and photographic growth.